This epiphany occurred during my first Frontier Days a couple years ago in the Indian Village. Everywhere you turn there is amazing Western jewelry and hanging everywhere are squash blossom necklaces.
It's out of control - kind of like my longing for one. Every time I pass a display case with them in it I stop in my tracks and just want to die with desperation for it. I lovingly run my fingers over them. I try them on. And ultimately, at generally upwards of $700 a pop, I put them back...walking sadly away.
Todd has even said he thinks he might have to give me an engagement squash blossom versus a ring.
The thought gave me pause.
Then one day, a month or so back, Todd and I went to the Eclectic Elephant, an antiques place in town. And there in the display case lay a beautiful turquoise squash blossom - and a sign saying all jewelry 50 percent off.
O - M - G.
I knew I still couldn't justify the price, but I had the sales lady pull it out just the same. I just HAD to see what the discount would knock the price down to...
I was momentarily stunned - could I have some crazy, CRAZY find on my hands?? - before my good sense came back and I knew, with great disappointment, it wasn't real.
But did I care? I had to ask myself if I could in good conscience wear an IMPOSTER. Wouldn't I be a poser? A total wanna-be? Yes.
But I told myself I wouldn't wear it around town. I'd only wear it in states outside the Western ones. Nobody would know then...
I bought it. I just couldn't help it. How in the gol-darn world could I pass it up?? I put it on in the car and wore it ALL night long. Todd told me I was like a kid who couldn't wait to play with a new toy. I'm ok with that.
And one day...not being able to take it staring at me from my dresser any more...I wore it to work!
I was apprehensive. What would I say when people inevitably ask me where I got my squash blossom - because people always do. And they did. So, I came clean. But nobody judged. Instead, they cooed over it! One coworker even told me I should have it examined to see if it's worth more because, she said, she would never guessed it to be a FAKE.
What does it look like...? Take a gander... The flash lighting is really annoying, but you can still see it.
I still don't think I'll have the guts to pull it out during Frontier Days, but who knows? I'm so crazy happy about it I'm becoming almost brazen about wearing it.